As I got out from the room, I burst in tears.
My heart is in pain and it feels like someone
is squeezing it from inside. I thought I had
prepared for it, the scene that Ben couldn’t
remember me. But I was disappointed and
Momsh hug me, trying to sooth me. “He’ll
remember you. Do not lose hope. He’s alive
and there’s a chance that he’s gonna regain
his memory again. Just wait, darling. Don’t
break down like this.”
“Momsh, I thought I can accept it. But no!
It’s hurt like hell. He remembered everyone
but he forgot me. It’s so unfair! He
remembered Olga and he forgot me. I
thought I can get through it easily but God!
“Hush now, darling. Where’s the Jaja who
was ready to make Ben remember her in
case he forgot about her? Where’s the
brave Jaja who can face every problem and
do not breaks down?”
I cry the pain I am feeling right now. Being
forgotten by your lover hurts like f*cking
hell even they are assuring to me that a
patient who suffers from retrograde
amnesia will soon regain his previous
“If you want to be remembered by Ben,
help him remember you. If he couldn’t
remember you, then make a new memory
for the both of you,” Momsh said. “Besides,
Olga is here. Don’t let her take away Ben
I sighed. Momsh is right. I should help Ben
remember me. I shouldn’t be breaking
down here outside while Olga is taking the
opportunity to get Ben’s trust again.
I stand up and fixed myself. “I’ll make him
I opened the door and come in. Olga is
trying to touch Ben’s face but Ben is
moving back. Good thing that he didn’t
forgot Olga’s sin.
“Stay away from him,” I command. Both
Olga and Ben look at me.
“Let’s go outside. They need to talk
privately,” Dad said and lead the others to
Dad, Aunti Fely, Ginny, and Vina joined
Momsh outside the room. It was only the
three of us who was left inside.
“You stay away from him. He had
forgotten you because you’re not
important to him,” Olga said.
“Nah-uh! My dear, psychology says if a
person forget about someone after the
surgery was because that forgotten
someone was the last thing who was
thought by a person before losing his
conscious. Now, let me explain it. He forgot
about me because I am the last person in
his mind until he passed out.”
Olga laughed. “Too desperate. Why don’t
you just accept the fact that you’re easy to
I also laughed. “Well, it’s okay for me to be
forgotten by him. You’re the one who’s
desperate here. You’re hoping that Ben
could forget your mistakes and start anew
with him and make him fool again. Good
thing he still remember the Olga who
“Olga, will you please get out?!” Ben
shouted. Olga couldn’t reject him because
he looks angry now. “Who are you, lady?”
Ben asked when Olga got out.
I look at Ben. He’s looking at me,
amusingly. Until now he don’t know who I
am because I walked out when he ask me
who am I.
“Heart, I am Jaja. Your girlfriend. It’s okay if
you forgot about me, I’ll make you
“How did we meet?” Now he ask about us.
I smiled and sit on the stool beside his bed.
“We meet on the club. I was auctioned and
you competed to a bidding with your
stepbrother, Frederick. You had bought me
His eyes widen. “I let go that kind of
amount of money?”
“Yes. I asked you about it also because I
was curious that you had bought me. You
told me that I am one of a kind. I am the
only one who had awaken your great
desire. You don’t want to let me be on
other’s arm that’s why you had fight for
me. And that is the start of our blue love
He arched his one brow. “Blue love story?
Why it had become blue?”
I smiled again and reminisced our previous
moments. “Mm-hmm. You’ve recklessly
spent your money for buying me, and that
was called bluing. Then I became your sex
slave and our story started in an erotic
situation until we developed our feelings,
that was blue.”
“Sex slave. Really? What was our
endearment then?” He looks amused.
“You call me sweetie, I call you heart.”
“Sweetheart. Nice endearment,” he said
My heart beats fast. He had said it before,
the ‘nice endearment’.
“You looks surprised. Did I say something
that makes you surprise?” he asked when
he notice my reaction.
“So, tell me more about our blue love
story. I want to know everything I don’t
I WAS ABOUT to go out from the girls
comfort room of the hospital when Vina
and Ginny entered. Ginny closed the door
and locked it.
My heart beats fast with the thought that
they’re going to kill me here. I know they
have a great grudge towards me.
“We need to talk,” Vina said.
I step back when they walk near me. Only
the three of us is here. They stopped when
they saw me stepped back.
“We came here because we want to say
sorry for everything we have done and said
to you. We admit that we hated you before
but everyone changes,” Vina said.
“Why are you saying this to me?” I asked
but I am still alert.
“If it wasn’t because of you, my brother
should be dead now. We thank you for
saving my brother,” Ginny said.
“We are sincere to everything we say. I
know it’s awkward, we hate you but we
thank you. Just go with the flow, Jaja. We
still hate you. There’s only one thing that
we both wanted to do. To see Ben recover
and regain his memory and be alright.”
I nod. “Okay. How about Olga?”
“We don’t like her either. She’s a leech who
wants to solo brother’s attention. I don’t
like you and Olga. But if brother wanted to
marry you, I have nothing to do against it.
I’ll just accept it,” Ginny said.
I smiled. “Okay.”
“This agreement would just be between
the three of us.”
“Just the three of us.” We shake hands like
we are businesswomen who had agreed to
“WHAT’S WITH this screwpine layer cake?”
Ben asked when I had brought him the
cake I made.
“It was the first food that you have
requested for me to cook for you.”
“Really? How about this fried pork? I don’t
I look at him, unbelievably. “You don’t eat
“Yes. I thought you are my girlfriend, why
you don’t know that I don’t eat pork?” His
“You don’t eat pork yet it became your
favorite. You even want to eat lots of it
while I feed you this.” I dip the pork on the
gravy and extend it to his mouth. “Try to
taste it. It’s delicious.”
He looks at my hand for a moment and eat
the pork along my fingers. God! He have an
amnesia yet he still do the things he likes
to do, like s—–g my fingers.
“Hmm… Indeed, delicious. I like to eat all of
it but you feed me.”
I rolled my eyes. Ben is still Ben. Even he
have amnesia, he is still Ben. What am I
expecting? He is still the naughty Ben that I
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As I got out from the room, I burst in tears.