“Ben, please don’t leave me. God, help
The ambulance responded immediately and
the nurses carried Ben in it. I hop in the
ambulance. I want to be with Ben and
make sure he’s breathing until we reach
I quickly called Dad and Momsh to seek for
help. I couldn’t handle Ben’s condition
“Dad, I need your help. I don’t know what’s
happening to Ben. He lost his conscious
and we are on our way to the hospital.”
“Alright, just give me the name of the
hospital and I’ll be right there.”
I ended the call and look at Ben. He don’t
have any wounds but he fainted. I am still
in panic that’s why nurses on the
ambulance injected me a sedatives.
Ben was delivered on the emergency room.
Both Dad and Momsh had come. They are in
“What happened to dear Ben?” Momsh
“I don’t know, Momsh. Uncle tried to
kidnap me and but fight him. I was just
gone for a short moment to call for a help.
And then we saw him lying on the ground
screaming his pain.”
“This is what I am saying. Ben did not listen
to the doctor’s advice and very determined
to not do the surgery,” Dad said,
I look at him. “Surgery? What do you mean
Dad look at me, surprised and confused.
“Ben didn’t told you about it?”
“Tell about what, Dad? He didn’t said
anything about the check up. He just said
that the check up is good, nothing else.”
“Ben have a serious problem, Jaja.”
BENJAMIN’s Point Of View
“Heart, me and Dad are concern about your
condition, please don’t make it bad.”
I sighed and look straight into her eyes. “I
am just afraid to know what’s my
“I am here. Don’t be afraid, heart. We are
here to support you whatever condition
I was frightened to what I have done to
Jaja. I’ve hurt her because I lost control. I
couldn’t forgive myself if I hurt her again.
My sanity returned when I saw her crying
and begging to believe her. I do believe
her. It was just my mind doesn’t act with
my body movements. I couldn’t control
We enter the Doctor’s office, the one who
did the check up and responsible for
scanning my body. He sit on his swivel
chair and he’s holding an envelope.
“Mr. Alvarez, this is the result of MRI we
have done.” He took out the black thing
from the envelope. “You have a Intracranial
“What do you mean with that?” Dad asked.
The Doctor showed us the picture on it.
“You have a brain tumor, Mr. Alvarez. This
medium sized circular white dot is a tumor
on your brain. It is malignant. This size is
very dangerous based on the symptoms
you are feeling right now. You have a
change in pattern of headaches that
become more severe. You also have an
unexplained nausea or vomiting. You also
said that you suffered from a sudden
blurred vision, difficulty of balancing
yourself. Your behavior is also suddenly
changing. And the very worst case here is
you’re experiencing a retrograde amnesia
that sometimes you lose control and
Stunned. This is what I am talking about. I
don’t want to have a check up because I
know I am sick, dangerous ill.
“Doc, can this be cured?” Dad asked.
“Couldn’t be cured but we can remove it.
Chemotherapy is no use, it would just slow
the growth of the tumor but it can’t kill it.
You need to undergo on a brain surgery,
“Doc, if ever we did the surgery, is there a
possibility that I’m going to lose my
memory?” I asked.
“Yes. Brain surgery is fatal but we can
assure you that you’re gonna live. The
problem here is there is a possibility that’s
you’ll suffer from an anterograde amnesia.
You’re gonna have a difficulties in
remembering your previous memories.”
I look at Dad. “I don’t want to do the
surgery. I don’t want to forget Jaja, Dad. I
“Don’t worry, Mr. Alvarez. You’ll undergo
into a therapy after the brain surgery and
we’ll help you regain the lost memories if
ever you suffered from an amnesia.”
“Still, I don’t like to undergo on a surgery.
Just give me medicines that can slow this
f*cking tumor in my brain.”
Dad hold my hand and kept me calm.
“Alright, Doc, just give us a prescription.”
“If ever you couldn’t handle the pain
anymore, you must undergo on a brain
surgery before it kills you, Mr. Alvarez.”
••••••••• END OF FLASHBACK
JAJA’s Point Of View
I couldn’t accept the truth. That’s why Ben
has been acting strange. It is because he
have a brain tumor that affects his
behavior and memory. Everything he had
weirdly done has been answered.
Ben! You’re unfair. I told you that I am here
and ready to support you for every
problem you’re gonna encounter. But you
still faced it alone.
I felt my knees weaken because of the
news I heard. I couldn’t hold my tears any
longer. Pain and sadness filled my heart.
Ben is sick yet I don’t know what is it. I
should be angry at him for keeping the
truth as secret from me. I should have
cared him more. And now Ben is on a fatal
“Doc, how is my son?” Dad asked the
doctor that got out from the ER.
“We need to do the surgery, Sir. Your son’s
life is in danger now and we couldn’t save
him if we haven’t removed the tumor on
his brain immediately,” the doctor said.
“But, Doc, can you assure to us that he’ll
live?” I asked.
“We can’t promise you that, lady. But we
will do our outmost best to keep him
I hold the Doctor’s hand. “Please, do
everything to save him.”
The Doctor nod and quickly moved. Dad
hold my hand.
“Are you sure you want to do it? There’s a
possibility that he’ll forget you,” he said.
I smiled. “Just to see him alive is enough,
Dad. If he don’t remember me, then I’ll
make him remember me.”
::::::::::::: to be continued :::::::::::::::
“Ben, please don’t leave me. God, help